CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!!!! What a BLESSING!

We received an early Christmas present and CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!!! Eric's doctors called and the DNA tests results came back- ERIC IS STILL 99% GRAFTED WITH HIS DONOR"S MARROW!!!!!!!!!! I can not put into words the feeling we feel right now, such a blessing from the Lord, such a relief! We all started crying so hard! Eric started crying and said "I have been praying so hard and knew the Lord would continue to bless us and help us with whatever the news was, now we can enjoy Christmas and being home as a family!" He is right!!

Chelsea and Austin both were not home yet. Chelsea called to tell us she was on her way home from decorating for the Christmas Dance at her school when we told her on the phone- she started crying so so hard and said Daddy I am so happy! Then we picked up Austin in the car and told him and he yelled " YESSSSSSS!! I knew Heavenly Father would help us more!" It is amazing the roller coaster we have and continue to be on, we know the Lord has his plan and we just need to try the best we can to embrace it! We realize that our journey will continue with ups and downs but pray for strength and peace as we fight to keep Eric with us.

Our good friend Jodie Clark reminded us that going through this week and the horrible news that hit us not even a day into being home will be another blessing and reminder of how blessed we are, how much our Father in Heaven loves us and that we are going to continue to be so grateful, so grateful for where we are as to where we have been and what can change in a matter of a moment!

I feel so bad for breaking down this week, I never wanted anyone to think that I am not grateful and that I don't have faith. I do have so much faith in the Lord, I know with him all things are possible! I think I just was so tried from the late flight no sleep, caring for Eric and working and then the bad news that hit- it was just all to much at once! I remember thinking " Please Lord we just got home, please we are just starting to try to be a family again! "Doubt not, fear not" That ran through my mind all week long as I tired to fight off the fear of the unknown. We have been blessed so much and I am eternally grateful to the Lord!

Eric talked to me last night and told me I am to hard on myself and that I have not broke down once, I have been positive this whole way through- his strength and that I deserve to break down and cry for a few days. I needed to let it out so I can process the news and come to grips with it and then get back on the positive path we were on! I love and appreciate him so much and I am honored to be his eternal companion and take care of him! He is an amazing man with such courage and strength- I have always known that! Our good friends the Clements and Eric convinced me that we need to out up the Christmas tree and decorate so they are so wonderful they insisted and are coming over today to help me put the tree up- thank you guys! I am so grateful for your love and support, encouragement we are so blessed to have so many of you whom love and care for us!

I want to bear my testimony that the gospel is our truest foundation, the Lord and the blessings that we can receive if we follow his example and the teachings of our scriptures and prophet are what will bring us peace and happiness in our lives. The tender mercies of the Lord whom wants to comfort us when we are in our darkest moments are such an amazing and powerful blessing! I am sooo grateful to the Lord for giving me these trials as hard as they have been to help me grow and learn and become closer to him. I am grateful for the promised blessings that we have and the honor to be trusted and blessed to be Eric's eternal companion and by his side every step of the way. I am grateful for the Lord entrusting me with my two wonderful children whom it is my greatest responsibility to teach them, love them and make sure they know of our Father in Heaven's blessings and I honor that and know with him all things are possible. I am so thankful for the scriptures and the power of prayer, for the Lord giving me the strength and courage to get through this and I will strive every day to be what he wants to be.