Donor Update...mixed feelings

Donor update...mixed feelings though. The good news is they have firmed up 2 donors for Eric! Both are males one is 27 years old and one is 39 years old. They will first use the 27 year old based on age however keeping the 39 year old on the side in case they end up needing him.

We are very happy about that and touched and in awe of the complete blind love a donor must have to become a donor for someone around the world, saving a life without anything in it for them selves. What an amazing and selfless act of love they have to do this. I wonder if they know how amazing they are, if they know they are saving not just one life but a family!!! They are giving us a chance at borrowed time, more love and memories that we are so grateful and desperate for.

Although this road is one we have been preparing for the emotions and uncertainty of it all if so over whelming! We have prayed and waited for this day but at the same time are so worried, scared and afraid for what the future holds however all at the same time we have faith that the Lord is guiding us through this and will continue to help us with each step.

I know that the Lord hears and answers our prayers however I realize that it also it his will not ours and that I can not just pray for what I want. I constantly have been reminded that everything that happens is for a purpose, a reason and although at the time we may not understand that we will in time and the Lord has his plan.

I know I am sounding selfish right now but I just can't help but plead for Eric to stay here on earth with us, that we need him more right now and that we can't let him go! I am grateful that I have our church belief and blessings and eternal blessings. What comfort that does give but still I can't help but plead for more....

A hard part of all this is leaving our 2 wonderful kids! Although they understand and want to sacrifice anything to save their Dad it is hard to leave them. They are not young little ones 15 and 13 years old but its hard to have your Dad and Mom leaving you for 4 months and knowing they are going for the fight of their lives, their Dad's life!

They are such amazing and wonderful good kids who are so responsible, so loving, hard workers, straight A honor roll kids who have had to grow up far to soon and be more mature than most kids their age. I think of all the things we will miss with them while we are gone....Chelsea's first date/ dance, watching her cheer at her high school games, Austin's football games, both of their school back to school nights, first day of school, just everyday family time. Seeing them when they first get home from school, asking how their day went and just being Mom and Dad...oh how we will miss them so much!

I hope they will be okay,I hope they will eat, do their homework and chores and most of all remember who they are and how much we love and miss them! I hope they will remember how much we love them, how much the Lord loves them and he is going to help us all through this! I hope they know how much their Dad is fighting for them, fighting to stay alive and have more happier days and memories with them! We love them so much they are the reason we are doing all this- they are the reason we fight and are going to another state to try to save their Dad's life. They are everything to us and we are so lucky and proud to have them as our children. I wonder if they know how much we love them!

So here we go right- this is it....the start of what I think is so far our hardest journey we have had to face in our lives. Please Lord continue to watch over us and guide us with the direction and path you have in store for us....protect our children, protect us, protect the donor and his family and protect all the doctors and most of all Lord protect Eric. Give him the strength to get through this, give him the love and support he needs and know all of our faith is with you...thy will be done.God bless us all....